life

bwk diri

2011-12-09T20:10:00.002+08:00

finally i could cross out 'sedap rasa woodlands' from my list of things i want. went there on my own yesterday because i couldn't stand staying at home anymore. it sure was a therapy being on a long bus ride, with ears plugged with songs.

took 903 from the interchange & i sat next to this guy. he, just reached from batam, asked me for directions to blk 19, marsiling & i was like, saya tk pasti. as ashamed i was to say that, i felt helpless coz i was thinking why am i on a bus that is going to marsiling when i'm heading to woodlands?? anyway, i asked him to ask the driver instead. and so he alighted correctly.

my journey continued. i put my specs on for better vision (hehehe maciam olang tua lo). minutes passed and i was getting confident that i was heading the right direction because the bus past marsiling cc & masjid annur, just the way is should be as stated in the streetdirectory map i've taken photo of using my phone earlier at home. but i did get a little nervous as my thoughts ran wild...what if this bus goes into the woodlands checkpoint??

apapun, sampai jgk akhirnya:D seram pulak rasa seperti aku kt malaysia. mana tk, train checkpoint kt opposite je tempat yang aku nk tujui.

so i bought my crab beehoon. wanted to take a look around the checkpoint, maklumlah jakun. sesampai di sana, nmpk ofis beli tiket & sebelah tu ada escalator. afraid that it's a no turn-back escalator, i went home instead. hahaha....and so i embarked my journey back home!

macam fun gitu explore sorang2!

1.10.11

2011-12-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

memories

2011-11-05T11:02:00.006+08:00

'Hey hav a wonderful n safe trip!gonna miss ya!' -azizah 6.51pm 10/12/09

'Oh man thx dude.cant wait to hear abt it.i call u tmr?' -azizah 11.23pm 13/12/09

'kwn kau kt bas stop.hurry while stock lasts' -mira 6.38pm 13/1/10

'Hey babe!(: Suddenly miss having you As my table partner damn badly so here to say hi(: Miss you have fun in school today yea' -ju 10.08am 19/1/10

'Dalilaluuuu! Take care okay. Dont faint on ur way home! Have a gd rest tau (:' -ayu 8.46pm 2/3/10

this was after we took the jab at the clinic after school. i think it was my first close-enough-encounter of fainting. quite scary i must say...my face turned pale sia and i almost vomitted. must be because i didn't have a proper break-fast before getting the jab (tula degil kn...haha). yang kelakar nye, both of us felt the urge to buang air besar lepas tu...haha...macam-macam effects jab tu

'bas aru lpas.aku tk naik' -mira 6.47am 4/3/10

was on the verge of crying due to stress if i recall correctly. so i asked her to wait for me and go to sch together. thanks mira, really appreciate it(:

'guess what. the mrt bising then i potek tak nampak the sign. so then i agak2 turun. im at bugis. kene tunggu another train. dang!' -farah 11.34pm 27/3/10

haha farah! kekek la you

'Never feel shortchanged ok? Things happen for a reason. "On no soul doth Allah place a burden greater than it can bear" - 2:286 and "Faint not nor grieve of you're indeed believers" - Al-Imran. Hope that helps. Goodnight dear :)' -kak ayun 11.35pm 24/4/10

'Hahaha.....tatz too bad..i found d class!! Im d first one here..late bt frst lol...' aisyah 7.50am 8/5/2010

we met at the bustop and we were fretting about being late.

'Awwww paiman! heehee^ ^ naiseeeeee. how's fasting coming along? When th fasting season started i alrdy think of you. Like how I used to try and fast with you(: but now cannot alrdy eh. Im a fat girl ): fasting is so tough must take care of yrself k' -ju 8.42pm 25/8/10

i miss those cedar times:(

'Eh, your kucing name bahrom right?(:' -nadzirah 2.21pm 10/1/11

super random la nadzirah! tkpe, i like! and hey, we're in the same school now:D

'Isit ok if I buy for you strawberry ice blend frm the bbt shop @ Elias when I visit you during your break at 5 today?' -nadia 9.28am 18/1/11

thank you nadia for visiting me a few times(:

'... Cgu pun ingat budget je Tak sangka dia begitu strict. But them again she is firm in her decision-making.' -cikgu 5.55pm 28/1/11

evident of the source of stress.

'Boleh.aku nk ubatkn kau dulu.' -mira 12.09pm 11/2/11

lol...mira's reply when i asked her something about wanting to become a practicing psychologist hahaa...but on a real note, i wanna see a counsellor, i really do.

'Don't get disheartened! Let's work harder tgt! :-)' -boon 4.23pm 12/10/11

we were consoling each other after getting back our disappointing results

'Hi sayang. Muacks muacks. Lawa you hari ni(: HEHEHE.' -nadzirah 11.23am 31/10/11

lol...gave me a shock sia. there i was stoning in the bus, then suddenly i received the sms from her. she now takes 151 to school also!

because my inbox serves as evident

2011-10-29T17:57:00.004+08:00

encouraging smses for the show

-'Dimulakan dngan bismillah,disudhi dengan alhamdulillah!' -mira 1:06pm

-'I watched your perf today and I could actually see you a few times cos I was sitting on the left. :))) some parts of the dance were really scary though cos of the music and your expressions. But there were also a lot of really cool part like the part with the long white kain. Good job. :) now you can celebrate right hahahaha.' -lyana 10:41pm

haha you can say that...after the show, i followed kosong & bro to mustafa & then ate supper with his friends at that sup tulang place.

-'Hmm proud of u. At least some of our girls go suppoert kan...' -kak na 11:35pm

-'I'm so sorry i missed your performance last night. Haven't seen you in so long man. It feels long at least. Hope you're coping well. I'm left with another week to my pre As which is like my second prelims. So much to cover. But whatever it is we will meet up after i'm done with all this ok :)' -syed 2:41pm

stressed out

2011-09-17T17:55:00.003+08:00

and i thought i could raya all out this year.

family: mum's busy with her gubahan.

friends: because we are in different schools now, somehow the most possible day to go out is after next week. but next week i'll be damn busy mugging for mid-term tests. and rehearsals.

there's jalan raya tomorrow but it clashes with the show.

and yes, the show. i'm quite stressed about tomorrow. because i can't recall some of the steps. damn, should've recorded them. and actually there was another item that i was supposed to learn also. but because i'm a slow-learner, i requested to be out of the item. i feel bad but please lor, i'm bad at memorising what more in a short period of time (in less than one training, can). they should've informed me earlier. i really thought i was performing only one item. furthermore, on that thursay, i was brain-drained to the max. had EL presentation earlier and there was math hw due the next day which i was stuck at question 2 (there were 10 questions) and it was already 9pm and school started 8am the next morning. one of them remarked casually something like 'ai budak uni belajar tinggi-tinggi pun tak leh hafal ni'. yes i know i suck at memorising.

sometimes, i do wonder how i end up in uni. i can't help but feel intimidated or to put it bluntly, stupid.

an ex-colleague asked if i want to work tomorrow since they require extra manpower for the event they're having. i'd really love to, because i miss my colleagues, but i have training! ugh. of course i can give training a miss but cikgu said there will be the orchestra coming.

SEE HOW STUFF KEEP CLASHING? frustrating much. reminds me of those gentarasa days (but at least there were no tests to worry about).

syukur

2011-08-20T12:37:00.004+08:00

there's a fuzzy and warm feeling inside everytime i see my secondary school classmates around the campus. it brings back fond memories...(:

on an unrelated note, i'm glad i went for the ms iftar yesterday!!! had a nice time catching up with my apollo mates;) and the food was good too! hehe

next up! got a date tonight with azizah and The One (:

school's in

2011-08-11T00:56:00.003+08:00

11.8.2011 - LECTURES START OFFICIALLY.

it feels quite surreal. like, me, in uni?

and i can't believe it - eight months of break just like *snap* that? on one hand, it seems like it's so long that my brain has turned rusty. on the other hand, it seems so short; i didn't manage to accomplish everything that i planned to do before A's.

who would have thought i'd work for six months straight. second week of december 2010 to end of may 2011(i still feel bad leaving them just like that). i miss my colleagues (but i certainly do not miss the work).

so far, for this year's ramadan, i've been breaking fast outside most of the time. let me see, i have a calendar in front of me here.

today's the 11th day of puasa. buka-ed at home only on 4 out of the 10 days. maklumlah, busy. cheydeybah haha. tapi kalau buka kt rumah pun, menyedihkan hati buat apa eh. haiz.

anywayz, berkat ramadan ni, moga-moga usaha aku untuk menimba ilmu dengan ikhlas dipermudahkan perjalanannya. amin.

*breathes in* bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

macam nak selubung

2011-08-04T23:51:00.003+08:00

let this be the last time i participate in such event. just two more days and that's it!

woah i spent almost half of this week in tarian.

19th

2011-07-22T11:12:00.002+08:00

a notebook from amirah :D "so you will always remember me". sure thing(:

blueberry cake baked with love by azizah (: "i spam with a lot of blueberry" haha thank you friend((: it's very sweet. literally haha! thank you for squeezing some time for me!

and then we spent two freaking hours finding a decent place for dinner. ended up at hanis eastpoint mall. my chicken carbonara and her aglio olio were so delicious, i actually could finish my own serving and a little bit of hers. or might be because of the hunger (dua jam oi).

when mrt is more convenient

2011-06-25T01:07:00.003+08:00

the allowance for gentarasa received! Alhamdulillah. i remember spending a lot more than i usually do on cab fare last month.

kiki

2011-06-19T23:10:00.005+08:00

when i was done playing with kiki and her kittens, i went home. and then i thought why not take a family portrait of them. so i took the camera and went down again. but the kittens were no longer there. so, there, a photo of kiki only.

just for info, kiki is the mother of spotty(photo below). they, like, take turns to give birth liddat.

skrg kiki plak beranak

2011-06-17T00:09:00.005+08:00

those were the nights when i ended work at 10 and instead of taking the lift up home, i'd past by the lift lobby to get to the other side of the corridor just to play with spotty and her kittens, and then take the stairs up.
(:

aku nak masak

2011-06-10T17:16:00.001+08:00

i hate this rigidity:( i said i want to cook but she didn't let me:((((((((((((((

precc

2011-06-10T16:44:00.002+08:00

because i was busy serving a customer at the outer counter, he sat inside and fiddled with my phone. i was ok with it until i realised much later that he could've read what was last on the screen (my phone does not have a lock...lousy right). thing is, i have no idea whether it was a text sent by amirah informing me that she was not attending the match or this:-

"Im not gg to sit thru e whole match. Ltr after work, i'll just drop by n then go to my training which is just right bside e stadium."

if it's the latter, i'm dead. they're not supposed to know of my trainings. but nevermind that, it's so over.

all that aside, i do miss my colleagues.

kenangaN

2011-06-04T22:12:00.002+08:00

found this while clearing out stuff on my table.

'Dunia seakan-akan mengejekku
Derai tawa yang bersulamkan teriakan kanak-kanak di sekeliling semacam kuat hari ini
Di taman permainan
Di kolong blok
Di rumah tetangga
Maklumlah mereka berseronok sekuat hati mereka selagi masa mengizinkan
Sesungguhnya esok bermulanya penggal tiga
Esok sekolah bermula
Hari ini menandakan hari terakhir untuk bersuka ria
Hari ini peluang terakhir
Biar mereka berseronok
Biar mereka bergembira sepuas hati
Biar mereka menikmati erti kelapangan masa
Sementara mereka boleh
Sementara aku terkongkong duduk di sini
Hidung terbenam dalam nota-nota setinggi gunung
Mereka seakan-akan mengejekku
Tawa mereka bak curahan simpati kepada gegendang telinga
Sinis sekali'

woah. i remembered writing this down while i was stressed out doing my revision.

anyway, here's another text from the ct (:
'Good to hear from u. Trust dat u have made a wise choice. Believe in urself always; and enjoy uni life. =)' 02/06/2011 8:51 pm
aww i miss those 09s501 times

:D

2011-06-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/news/64896.html

penat

2011-05-30T02:16:00.006+08:00

i was browsing through some pages, when i discovered something and i can't contain my excitement and i can't stop smiling. hehehe...need someone to blurt out to but they are all sleeping haiss

anyway. so the gentarasa is over. didn't really enjoy the gruelling process but it was quite an experience i must say.

'all the best for later!dance your heart out.i'll see you there!break a leg!(pls dont take it literally i hope).'
-azizah 28/05/2011 01:37pm
<3 i'm thankful for my dear ones.

cuma sayang, didn't know kak nur and kak anis really wanted to go. kalau tak, siang-siang dah belikan tiket. sayang ah...tak teringat pulak. aiseyman.

come tuesday, i'll be done with pre. the last time i saw jobain, which was during the soccer finals, he was in disbelief when i told him that i'm still in pre. haha can't believe it myself. 6 months or what.
oh yes, the soccer finals. i thought i was late for trng so i left the match six minutes before it ended. as i walked along the pahq track, i could hear the cheering and the drumbeats so loud that i could feel my hair stood up. when the cheering got louder, i knew that instant that mj won and i was beaming with pride!
sesampai di bilik studio, we had to wait for the others to come before we could start training proper. padahal i reached quite late already lor. mana tak geram gini

insyaAllah, minggu ini akan berjalan dengan lancar

2011-05-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

i just spent almost 12 hours training. of which more than half the time was spent waiting for our turn to come. i even had to cancel the tuition. i feel so lousy. to make matters worse, i'm still torn between the two.

balloon from ch

2011-05-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

of regrets and should-haves

2011-04-30T10:04:00.004+08:00

shouldn't have gone for work last night. i was so free to the extent that i was watching annoying orange on the computer in between serving customers...i'm sure my partner would have managed on his own lor.
so later, i have to work doubly hard in memorising lat steps. ya Allah, lapangkanlah mindaku dan permudahkan hafalanku, amin.
you see, it's not that i'm lagging behind because i suka-suka don't turn up for practices. it's just that i'm tied down by work and this brings me to say that one of the things i regret most is lying about my involvement in this. second thing i regret is, to ask her out which, to cut the long story short, eventually led to me being alone here.

anyways, random but i do miss maini. now there's no one to manja with at workplace. thank goodness for tw to entertain my nonsense((: he's the only one who understands how much i wanna stop working.

and i really miss amira:(

zap and lat

2011-04-24T01:19:00.003+08:00

i'm supposed to be preparing for materials for the session later at 9am but i don't know where to start. have been stoning in front of this computer for don't know how long already.
feeling lousy right now. maybe coz just now my partner kena questioned by customer all because of my mistake.
and also because even after all those rounds of practices, when my group's turn came, i screwed up (together with the rest, but that's not the point). directions semua hancur. it just proves how rigid i am that once the setting is altered, i got confused again. padahal setakat membelakangkan cermin. but looking on the brighter side, i'm thankful i more or less memorised the sequence already. now i'm hoping they'll do lat on the day i'm able to be present.

coz i have to clear my inbox

2011-04-19T11:01:00.004+08:00

'Come lvl 3 pls. Have chopped a place for us to use.'
-msj 01/11/2010 09:40am

initially i was a little bit reluctant to climb up the stairs but when i reached the third floor, i was pleasantly surprised :D

verbal diarrhoea

2011-04-11T12:51:00.004+08:00

"sorry eh tadi otak tak berfungsi ah."
"oh jam eh"
haha sigh why did i agree to extend contract again? i feel so stifled urgh.

bermacam ragam

2011-04-06T03:51:00.004+08:00

pity them; they had a hard time teaching me zap (it's too bad i can't memorise it if you just sketchily tell me what comes after another. i need to see the picture on the whole.) all it takes was just to miss the first 3/4 of friday's training and the last quarter of saturdays' training.
dah datang siang, tak buat banyak. bila tak dapat datang, time tu jugaklah yang kena hafal banyak.
janji melayu. what else?

squeezed till dry

2011-03-31T23:50:00.013+08:00

eh pheeeeesshhh ah. i JUSST realised that i'm supposed to be in the afternoon shift tomorrow (patut ler tergerak hati nak check roster)!!! i usually end at six on fridays. and then straightaway to training. pheesh la how liddat. to make things worse, there will only be the two of us. i can give training a miss but that would mean a lot to catch up later on. but i'm bad at memorising!

seriously, i've been stressed out because of this time management issue. a lot of times i've been caught between work, trainings and personal time. there was once when i had work, training, universities' talks and a friend's wedding all in one weekend. how i managed was to ask for a half-day leave, skipped training, kirim-ed salam to the friend (i felt really bad and heavy-hearted la coz i already missed her engagement ceremony previously due to dance practice) and went for the uni talk (because i know, the future needs to be the first priority, especially when i was clueless about what to embark on. and still am.)
and right now, i feel bad because the cg outing is planned on the 16th. i have training in the afternoon followed by work. i'm just hopeful i can ask for leave. even so, i'll only be free after six. but what if training drags? urghhh

now, why did i extend my work contract again? nehmind...one more month go!!!!

depth vs breadth

2011-03-24T02:32:00.004+08:00

i listed down the courses to apply for and my choices don't make sense. i'm so weird i can't stand myself:(

rezeki

2011-03-21T12:50:00.002+08:00

when my aunt went to malaysia some days back, i kirim-ed a maher zain cd. tak sangka pulak dia sanggup singgah kat rumah untuk pass tu cd. hadiahkan lagi...atas keputusan A's. so sweet please. Alhamdulillah(:

gula melaka melts in the mouth

2011-03-16T09:32:00.004+08:00

failed attempt in making ondeh-ondeh last wednesday.

because i was craving for these sweet chewy malay delicacy, i pestered mum to let me make them. mum said it would be easier to buy them but i insisted on making them from scratch because i like how the balls bounce up to the surface of the boiling water when it's cooked (we ever made it before but twas eons ago).

but it didn't go as well as i thought it would be. it's evident from the photo above. doesn't look appetising, does it?

this is the second batch...

looks like weird green balls huh. didn't bother to roll coconut on them. biarlah bogel. i don't like coconut anyway.

said kosong, "hijau dia nak bahasakan pe."

ni lah melayu

2011-03-10T09:56:00.003+08:00

some people think that they're some big shot and that it is a crime not to know who they are.

you called and you just mentioned your name. how on earth was i supposed to know that you wanted me to let you enter the parking space? i tried to ask what you WANTed but instead you snappishly explained WHO you are. i could vaguely guess what you wanted only because there were previous cars which just entered for the event.
perangai anggak. snobbish.

familiarity once again

2011-03-07T02:09:00.002+08:00

rindu itu sangat bisa.

comel

2011-02-28T12:02:00.002+08:00

and that eeyore is mine (:

bersyukur kepadaMu kerana mencurahkan kebahagiaan

2011-02-20T20:15:00.005+08:00

i am fuming but i shall not let it out here. takut benda yang tak baik semua keluar. baik cerita yang happy-happy lagi berfaedah kan.

yesterday was the first time i laughed so much during work. trust us three to man the office hurhur. when closing, an incident happened which cements the "everything ask ocbc. take out 'o', take out 'b'." kecoh, kecoh!:D

i actually brought my pencil box to class this morning! big deal huh. it's been long since i take down notes and religiously at that. and with ustzabdulrahman, who wouldn't enjoy the lesson? the most tak-boleh-angkat part was when he tested us on the difference between syari'ah and fiqh. one of the guys came out with this analogy; syari'ah is like martial art. fiqh is like taekwondo, silat...
nice one! hahaha

bersarang

2011-02-18T22:36:00.001+08:00

a million and one questions

kebahagiaan rumahtangga

2011-02-15T15:17:00.002+08:00

dalam hal ni, agama sebagai jaminan?

quite tiring week

2011-02-13T00:31:00.010+08:00

dengan penuh sardinnya, i walked into the office half an hour after the supposed reporting time. the first person to greet me was sc, exclaiming 'woah you also go buy uh?' when he saw the load of stuff i was carrying. apparently, tw was also late (but reached before i did) because he was finding valentine's present.

"NOWSADAYS people treat the office like their grandfather's place" hahaha kk inside joke.

but just now i wasn't late on purpose (heh yes, sometimes i do plan to reach late due to foreseen circumstances). i was from aisyah's house, baking brownies for the street dakwah project. that explains the load of stuff i was carrying; baking trays, flour and stuff.

anyway, the office was busy preparing for the dinner event. after break, my job was to basically "entertain the students" while they wait their turn to perform. the instructions was very vague. thank goodness for my super-nice partner :). it went quite ok, just that some of them were quite impatient. i mean, i already informed them that there was a delay and the holding area was already packed yet they insisted on going down. dalam hati, gasak korang la...kalau kene diri menyanguk kat tepi jalan tu jangan salahkan aku.

after everyone left, there was a lot of leftover food. sc made me take some, no, a lot, home. he was helping me stuff the boxes into my bag. "here got space, can put some more". i ended up bringing home eight boxes haha. now, one problem; i forgot to give j the food receipt. and i won't be back until wednesday. sighhhh

ok as for later, i don't know if i should help them distribute the brownies at orchard road or go for my dance practice :S

sibuk atau stres?

2011-02-10T01:46:00.000+08:00

really makes me wonder the meaning of being busy

over meatballs

2011-02-01T23:07:00.004+08:00

during break earlier on, went to ikea to have dinner with azizah. given the time constraint, it was so rushed that i even had to help finish her portion. friend, i'm not satisfied with that about-half-an-hour-catch-up. another one soon yeah

anyway, she noticed that i had changed my brown wallet to the one she bought for me from cambodia! hehehe...but i was quite heavy-hearted to replace the previous brown wallet because it was my 18th birthday gift from 09s501:) it's just too bad that the coin pouch is tattered. the brown wallet is now in my disney's magical memories bag hahaha. and yes, i miss my cgmates. it's so hard to meet up ugh!

one confused mind

2011-01-28T23:27:00.005+08:00

thank goodness j was all cool about it. he's so patient with me la can. but the guilt is still nestled deep down.

anyway, after all that, i didn't know whether to cry, or to laugh. texted mira about the confused state i was in just now. her reply, though came hours later, really tickled me. what do i do without her. the song 'jika engkau pergi', the song we used to sing to tease each other, is the total opposite of my sentiments.

mimpi?

2011-01-27T00:06:00.004+08:00

a few years of not talking to each other and the first words exchanged were some hurtful strings of words shouted at the top of their lungs.

it did cross my mind that maybe, just maybe it was a nightmare but that's just wishful thinking on my part.

even sms doesn't help in arguing even though it is in black & white

2011-01-16T10:16:00.002+08:00

so he asked me to buy him macd.
'If you buy it, I have a surprise 4 u 2 c.'
i replied that it was too late because i was well on my way home in the bus already.
'Huh? Mcdonald is 24 hours pe!'
haha sigh. I explained that i could've bought him if he had told me earlier before i boarded the bus. what, he expect me to make a detour just to get him macd? puhlease.
'Mepek seh, ok fine, I won't show u what e surprise is at home unless u buy it.'
-_- see how impossible it is to talk it out with him. And still got the nerve to insinuate me when i reached home.

four days later, came his order 'Belikan Barom McSpicy meal upsize dan airnye tukar ice lemon tea, thks.'
'Kau ada cukup duit tak?'
'Since u kerje, give me discount ah.'
'Gaji aku belum masuk'
'Then w8 for it lah! Jus give me like $2 discount...'
'Ok la I can wait for it. After 15 jan. U can wait for it?'
'If possible, I wan e fries 2 b hot bcus when you reach home, I don wan it 2 b cold. So that means u buy my meal after ur work when u c ur bus comin like that. Jus estimate e time.' woah part ni tak boleh angkat hahaha...
'Kata after 15 jan, lepas gaji masuk?'
'Huh?? What do u mean??'
'Eh, cancel my order jus nw bcus I am nt in e mood of eating alrdy. Mayb next time.'

rent bike

2011-01-06T01:22:00.003+08:00

this was supposed to be two days ago, but heck,

me and azizah managed to cycle from the reservoir to pasir ris! not really REACH pasir ris but it was just the other side of the road, so kudos! heheheh

note to ourselves, next time bring cushions and/or comforter in case of buttaches or rain(?).

lost in times

2011-01-03T01:31:00.002+08:00

as i expected, she was more angry than concerned about what had happened :(
the only plus side i can think of is that i had her trust, and luckily still am.

the caretakers

2010-12-23T00:58:00.008+08:00

while discussing about the christmas tree decorations,
"amek air."
"buat apa?"
"nak siram."
ahhahaaha when in fact the tree is a fake one.
-

"pukul berapa?"
"agak-agak...dalam pukul 1230."
"agak-agak?!...agak-agak ke lady gaga?"
and i giggled. at their light-hearted spontaneity. and also because it reminded me of some inside joke.

no buddy to complain to anymore ugh

2010-12-19T04:22:00.004+08:00

for yesterday, i dreaded answering barrier calls coz only registered cars were allowed to enter. but there were some who claimed that they were part of the setting up. i got paranoid. you see, i feel serik ever since the christmas event when i allowed vehicles to enter but j got mad coz he earlier warned us not to let any cars park inside. in my defence, it wasn't my fault coz there IS a difference between parking and unloading. but then again, s said you need to park in order to unload. sigh, true. so every time there's an event, i stress sia picking up the calls. i'm not that those troublesome kind who would really check on them.

as for the wedding, i empathise with them. i mean, their requests are sensible what. but i wasn't in the position to say anything since the management was in charge.

they veh mean to put me at the front desk:(

i mean, who would've expected it? haha

2010-12-09T01:10:00.006+08:00

surprise surprise!
hehehe gosh i'm sorry mira for squeezing your arms/hands very hard. i was taken by surprise when you told me, really!

by the way, regarding the post below, melody finally called me on monday. i knew i should've waited a little longer but oh well, that's circumstance for you.

i wanna work with mira!

2010-12-03T10:37:00.000+08:00

don't leave me hanging like this leh!

my style

2010-12-02T11:36:00.003+08:00

i found this text that i saved in my draft a few weeks ago.

just when i thought it has reached the basal surface, it found its way down joints and bedding planes.

haha wth. i don't know why i was feeling that way but must have been the stress or the household matters. you see, sometimes when there's no one to turn to to hear out my pent-up feelings, i would write/type everything out. it will then either be disposed of or kept.

the trip

2010-11-30T04:44:00.007+08:00

paintball was unexpectedly fun!

anyhoos, i'm here sitting in front of the computer, tapping lightly on the keyboard so i won't wake the rest up, doing nothing but having a peek at other people's lives online, because i can't sleep.
i fell asleep on the sofa last night and woke up to kucing's meows and was quite surprised he was still in the house when it was already 3am. sent him out and then plonked myself in bed. tossed around but couldn't sleep. so i read the newspapers and then here i am online and i might as well wait until 5.30am.

done with a's

2010-11-23T08:52:00.001+08:00

survived.

but not unscathed.

berkatilah perjuanganku ini

2010-11-04T00:09:00.007+08:00

sitting for seven papers in five days spells absurdity.

God, please grant me the strength and stamina.

berlagu lara: aku terus berharap, kosong

2010-10-06T07:05:00.004+08:00

apa kau sahaja yang boleh lontar-lontarkan amarah begini?
hanya hati ini yang menyaksikan seribu satu kekata yang terhimpun tetapi tidak terdaya aku luahkan. namun, aku tetap membina harapan, walau atas bayu lalu.

halfway through prelims

2010-09-16T14:13:00.001+08:00

screw the geog dept.

2010-05-19T23:16:00.001+08:00

ridiculously overwhelming. and since when does my immune system crumble so easily?

bee ehm tee see

2010-04-24T08:45:00.000+08:00

"Help, help the pillar's falling!" hahhaaha!

"anything that can go wrong will go wrong"

2010-04-18T11:32:00.010+08:00

the murphy's law was being harsh on me yesterday. on top of that, i couldn't attend a friend's engagement ceremony and meet the rest of the jambori people because i had to be at yew tee by five. sayang la.

but there are more reasons to be happy about for now. like securing an A for a H1. and the guitar musical (like what aisyah said, who knew LT4 could be nice? oh and my favourite piece was the Apologise song!). and i satisfied my craving for sardine curry puff yesterday (i think old chang kee will be my weekly affair, dropping by yew tee point or whateverthatplaceiscalled after dance practice heh). and i managed to complete a malay paper 1 this morning.

but there are still mountains of tutorials, revision packages, the courage purpose character chemistry revision (haha wth), case studies and whatnots yet to be done.

sometimes i wonder why i land myself into this. a lot of times too i feel shortchanged. then time and again i would remind myself that [insert all sorts of reasons].

Alhamdulillah

2010-04-01T23:02:00.004+08:00

the best, anytime. what more can i ask for? (:

one more time go

2010-03-30T00:07:00.006+08:00

I wanna go to paris park again!
I wanna go on the swing and scream my lungs out.
I wanna rollerblade through the rain.
I wanna sing out loud.
I wanna be carefree and just laugh at one another silly.

Well that was what me, amirahhh, ayu, mira, muni did after our last paper last friday. It was sibeh stress-relieving and fun! Amirah said it's cos "who gets to see dalila fall seh". Haha thanks, I know i'm not usually clumsy. Riiight.

Gimme credit la, that was my first time rollerblading wokay. Decided to join amirah and ayu rollerblade just for the thrill and the adrenaline rush. It was much needed especially since the exams just ended. Special mention goes to both of them for guiding me very patiently ((: . oh and when i was able to rollerblade on my own, mira, for the sake of fun, purposely distracted me so that I would fall. But of course she would offer me something to grab unto when I lost balance haha.

It did rain but it dint matter since the trees framing the park canopied us from the rainwater. The weather was beautiful (: plusss…the park was practically empty so we had the place to ourselves. lovely

one more time yea.

hasad dengki

2010-03-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

Usually, I would tolerate and dismiss them as acts or rebel or immaturity. You can't expect much from a thirteen-year-old boy right. But now that he has summoned the courage to up his mischief to another level, he has overstretched my patience.

As the saying goes, slandering is worse than killing.

I could have easily ignored him for accusing me of dirtying the sofa (when instead he was the one who did it) if not for the way he sounded so loud and convincing trying to win M's sympathy, leading to more lies.

Boy, I pray for your senses to come knocking into your brain.

"haruskah aku melihat kaca sambil bermenungkan permata?"

sud sud oi yah

2010-02-27T11:38:00.002+08:00

Eversince I saw kosong on tv performing for chingay eons ago, I was determined to join chingay. Sirius once planned to take part, but wasnt allowed by teacher i/c of which reason still remains unclear to me. so last year when I received an email calling for chingay 2010 volunteers, naturally I signed up. As an usher. Azizah had very kindly agreed to join me :)). The trainings were mostly draggy. The fun part was having lunch together after that ;)

During the first day parade last friday, we did ticketing at garage 27. Twas rather boring coz there were not many guests entering our garage. We couldn't help wishing we were motivators instead so that we could be high and just cheer. We only had chance to do that after the parade ended when we bid goodbye to the guests. Second day was better, with more stuff to do. Fun experience uh I would say, going through this with group 2-2.

That's it man, next year I shall sign up as, if not performer, as motivator! With fiveohone. after which we go clubbing haha (inside joke)

2010-02-26T20:41:00.002+08:00

i had an awful hair cut. i'm seeking comfort from this kinder bueno. the one from my angel.

cny eve eve

2010-02-13T09:44:00.004+08:00

i suspect there's a flu bug going around.

my temperature has been fluctuating. i was nearly ok yesterday morning but i felt weak to get out of bed. so i told ayu i was coming late. reached school-got prepared for concert-performed-photoshooted. it took me twice the energy permol(omg shuddup) to do a thing and everything was done slow mo. k i'm exaggerating but you get my point.

headed to bedok polyclinic. oh i have to mention this, i unwrapped the gift from my angel on the bus and i was smiling to myself. it was a block of dark chocolate and a packet of kinder bueno. (cue: awww) so heartwarming. i mean, like, i don't even know who my angel is.

reached home and slept like a pig. actually my purpose of updating is because the previous post is so demoralising but apparently this post is as bad. gah

what a way to spend the holidays.

insecure? intimidated?

2010-01-30T00:31:00.001+08:00

when confidence stoops to a new low

check yes

2010-01-10T08:54:00.003+08:00

reality check.

school's starting tomorrow.

whatever happened?

six weeks gone just like *snap* that?

remember dal, perbetulkan niatmu, pace youself...steady

go.

words that came out from my mouth were minimal

2010-01-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

sampai hati, mak

photo journal

2010-01-03T11:55:00.010+08:00

This hantaran was from the bride, kak Mas, to the groom last month. Proudly done by mum and her friend. (They're into handicrafts)

The chocolate cake

The kain pelekat

The croissants

The chocolates

The baju kurung

The essentials for the man

The songkok

The fruits

The sweettooth

The sejadah

This was the berkat

eve new year

2010-01-01T21:41:00.004+08:00

homely.

two years later, the new cedar.

homecoming was nostalgic. got to see those who made the four years there unforgettable. but not all sadly.

time squeezing out life out of me

2010-01-01T01:33:00.002+08:00

just reached home and I was running amok around the house. Kena chased by dearest kucing. For not giving him food. Thanks. Dah lah semalam orang dah rakaat keempat dia gi duduk atas sejadah. Haha bukan cara begini untuk berjemaah lah sayang. Oh have I mentioned he brought home his girlfriend last two sundays? I wasn't home though, I was in camp. Mum said he left his juliet outside while he went in to eat.
I got a selamba for a cat.

Oh yes the jambori camp. It was at nurfa farmstay. A good exposure on how they carry out things differently. And most importantly, made new friends((: and the ride back home was fun. initially I was reluctant to go mainly because my classmates pangseh-ed me. but it turned out well. Just that I hated the campsite.

homecomin, i'm coming

2009-12-28T20:16:00.009+08:00

I'm feeling utterly upset because i just found out that mum had my cedar uniforms thrown away. the tie is still in the wardrobe but what's a tie without the uniform. I'm quite surprised actually that I'm feeling this way.

maybe it just goes to show how much it means to me.

or maybe i'm more angry at the way mum turned it the other way round..."Serves you all right for not keeping your things properly", "need space for other things" itu itu jugak alasan mak eh. "Aku dah simpan bertahun-tahun, gitu jugak". Firstly, it's been less than a year. Secondly, I've told you before that I wished to keep a set. Thirdly, like how much space does it take up? It's not fair, go throw away your kain-kain tak pakai tu la, asyik kita je yang "banyak benda menyemak tak pakai".

dahagakan adventure

2009-12-14T22:14:00.013+08:00

been wanting to do water sports. lost touch from sea activities since rafting during sec 3 OBSabah (great memories) if i remember correctly. So it was a good choice to opt for this adventure package tour.

The ultimate experience was needless to say, scuba diving! The view was mesmerizing. But good thing we dint hire a cameraman. If not it would be embarassing to watch ourselves on screen. Apa tak, I was clinging onto the instructor like there was no tomorrow. And because it was so unnatural to breathe through mouth, I refused to let go of the mouthpiece. so I was struggling to feed the fish with my other hand. Later on I found out that kosong and dad also struggled a bit here and there. Comical I tell you.

The most thrilling activity - cycling around Ubud. We cycled on the road (the unorganized, busy road) and it left a great sense of satisfaction in me after completing it unscathed. Feeling feeling driving gitu. Initially I was irritated by the horns but grew more confident when dad explained that those were friendly warnings of their incoming vehicles. (:

our bicycles neatly parked while we did some shopping.

Out of the four; white water rafting, jetski, parasailing and banana boat, hmm I cant decide if rafting or jetski is the best.

tanah lot and the pura offer views that were superbly breathtaking.

Our favourite meal is the second day dinner...enjoying the meal amidst the cool sea breeze on the beach.

saw a lot of preeeddy woven bags. so tempted to buy one but too bad i currently have two other bags in good shape.

Cant help but say BAIIIK KEPER!

sandaran hati

2009-12-05T10:45:00.003+08:00

a few of the little things that go a long way c:

"Remember to breathe k! No worries! :)" -Kak Ayun

"See, ice mountain is convenient and good right! Sooner or later you will fall in love with it and buy it everyday!;-)" -Rosalind

"When i hear the blackdogbone song i think of you:Dno lah i had fun with you last yr" -Hafeeza

Kuih cornflake kuih bangkit
Mkn bersama kuih lapis
Klu kadnye kubalas lewat skit,
marah tk wahai si muni manis?
"Di bulan ramadhan marilah bertaubat,
Jangan turutkan sikap pemalas,
Tidakku kesah cepat atau lmbt,
Asalkn terbit dr hati yg ikhlas." -Muni

"you ar.need cheering up come talk to me la.i confirm try to cheer you up K.but im not joking when i say i still care k.measure th love not th distance baby:*YOU wil always have me:):*" -Ju

"I feel so thankful that ure my friend n admire n appreciate u as a wonderful person who does nt hesitate 2 use ur potential to e fullest. For still being with me after all these years, i thank u with deepest gratitude n much love. We might nt be there for each other physically but i noe we think of each in our own times. Thank u for existing in my life n along the way, u taught me the values of life n importance of friendship. :)" -Faiszah

"Anw,stay happy always k!And,it's great to be in e same school as u again! And even e same cca. Hee. Suke suke!" -Waina

"Oh n dun worry la i may seem distant to u but really, i dun think anyone can replace the childhood i had wif u. We practically grew up 2gether. Im sentimental as hell. So dun worry, will nvr allow myself 2get my dearest frens. its very rare i find frens hu has a big impact on my life lyk u do. Wil always stay in touch. My parents still ask abt u occasionally. And if u ever move house or change no. dun 4get 2 inform me. :-)" -Faiszah

"MOE: DALILA BTE PAIMAN, you are posted to MERIDIAN JC, SCIENCE (36S) under 2009 JAE. Pl report to JC/MI on 2 Feb 09 at 7.30am." -74688 30/01/09 06:49 (i just have to note down the time. right after receiving this sms, a frenzy of smses followed haha)

"C0mp r0sak dear fren..Bt nvm,i wil styl add u ;) tap syng, i dun hv e rests..E guys r funi n dey r nice..U guys make e tuition enj0yable!Bnyk2 tuit0n,tuiti0n ni la bez..At first sdih ah,ku s0rang p0mpuan..Tap tuhan kecian pat ku n dats wen u cum,ceh! :D" -Herani

"Don't worry if you're feeling shortchanged coz you aren't.." -Kak Ayun

cry myself to sleep?

2009-12-05T01:36:00.004+08:00

refused to sleep in my room (I had my reasons) so slept in the study room. But Kak iza needed the light to pack her stuff (she's leaving for holiday later). moved to kosong's bed. A while later she chased me away. plonked down in the sofa, pressing the cushion hard against the eyes to keep out the light that came from the kitchen and study room. But the radio sounds from the kitchen were disturbing. tossed around restlessly. Could hear kosong chatting on the phone. Wondered why she talks to her friends more than she bothers to talk to me. wanted to plug in earpiece, but dint want the wet ears to spoil them. Yes, by then I was crying very hard quietly (of course not just over this nowhere to sleep). Tears rolled outwards from the eyes to the ears. breathing was through the mouth cos the nose was blocked. Crying while lying down sure is painful. Gave up trying to sleep, went to the toilet to wash face and saw how ugly the eyes were. so red and puffy. And it still is heavy.

kalau hati adalah di mana perasaan wujud,

2009-12-03T18:56:00.001+08:00

While she thinks that it is a burden, i prefer to see it as freedom of choice

tahlil for arwah nek

2009-11-28T13:40:00.002+08:00

indeed, the elderly is the linchpin of family unity.

go with the flow

2009-11-22T10:26:00.002+08:00

it's not that i do not have a mind of my own. but i've learnt to get used to the swallowed emotions and taking the back seats.

keeping hopes high

2009-11-13T22:43:00.004+08:00

Wouldn't it be nice if dad really means it. not asking for much, setakat tujuh hari tujuh malam in Australia is enough. How bout Henan, China...snowing sounds lovely the way Bing was describing it.

Riiiighht. Fine, a simple getaway will do, pretty please. even if it's only the three of us, heck.

<3

2009-11-09T23:22:00.006+08:00

Tomorrow shall be a windy day. At least a windy morning. Yes it will. Hehe only mira gets this. She's one of the few who never fails to layan my kerenah. Like just now, after much pestering from me, she got me a candy I was craving for. thank you for tolerating my nonsense. Cek sayang hang!

i love random smses frm her(:

2009-10-29T19:54:00.005+08:00

is it me pms-ing or is b really irritating?

i thought i would spend the night away all scrunched up and skipping dinner as i was having cramps. along came b who triggered my annoyance and to the kitchen i went to eat. see, food works for me most of the time.

now why am i having back aches only now when the cycling was yesterday. two rounds around the reservoir with azizah. and i was traumatised because i think i ran over something on the second round. gees. hope i dint. other than that, 'twas a rewarding wind down!

tune and music

2009-10-18T14:57:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, you're not just a perfectly normal person going about a perfectly normal day. You become like a temporary video star, brooding on memories to the strains of a familiar song, or tapping your feet to the beat of an infectiously joyous tune. (Hong, 2009).

true, true.

bilakah sandiwara akan berakhir?

2009-10-16T20:38:00.004+08:00

Things took a different turn. It started in august. I dunno if it is for the better or the worse. What I know is, is that we are getting good in this pretence.

environmental conscious here

2009-10-14T01:35:00.002+08:00

can you imagine how many papers are used just for drafts?

postpromos!

2009-10-08T10:58:00.009+08:00

surpisingly, i woke up this morning without much aches. clay target shooting PE elective was yesterday and since it's been long since i last shot, the recoil was something i took a while to get used to yesterday. it was a shotgun instead of the usual .22 revolver. i din't manage to hit any of the clay targets, how sad. at least i get to lepaskan rindu of shooting. aaandd...got to see HTA! like after 1 year plus. but no la, we didn't shoot at HTA but at the shooting centre, somewhere more ulu. but still, *adrenaline rush* ahah

i still havent got sufficient sleep. yes, my last paper ended 6Oct 4pm, but the j1 bash was on that night, there was pw stuff the next morning(anti-climax right...) followed by the shooting.
after that i was chionging wr all the way. woke up at seven this morning to finish it up so that i could hand in by noon but the deadline's extended to tomorrow. so i felt at loss on what more to change, not that there's nothing to improve, just tired of editing. so just to break the monotony, i'm here blogging.

kucing was brushing itself against me. ok he wants milk.

2009-09-05T20:38:00.001+08:00

crocodile tears. suckkkerrrr, i swear. humph.

but actually studying at the void deck was not bad at all. kucing appeared and had a nap for a while <3.

hari berganti hari, bulan menyapa diri. ternyata, sungguh, aku tak percaya masa begitu mencemburuiku.

36 more days

2009-08-25T01:11:00.001+08:00

when am i ever ready.

time's rushing against the clock. 36 more days to promos.

suci

2009-08-22T00:49:00.011+08:00

monday was bleagh but the following days were better:)

Ramadhan's here(: embrace it while you can.

mum got two vip tickets to a ceremony on the fifteenth so she asked if i wanted to follow her. at the thought of food, i agreed at that instance. little did i know that it was the hari raya lighting up of geylang and had to sit through the performances. upon reaching, i was filled with dread when i learnt that our allocated seats were at the second row, just behind the guest-of-honour, minister Mah Bow Tan (he was so within reach that i felt like asking him, 'so sir what do you think of the conservation of chek jawa?' and interview him right there and then). man, i hated the glitz.
mum got the tickets from a malaysian friend who didn't want to go cos she had attended one last year. this friend is from the malaysian embassy. so here's the tak-boleh-angkat part. the lady who sat beside mum was the mother of the malaysian host. when the guest-of-honour took his seat, this lady said hello to him. feeling pressured, mum decided to do the same and said "hello sir, we're from the malaysian embassy". haha baik mak! luckily the conversation wasn't pursued.
the best part was when the first three rows were asked to take our leave halfway through the performances to the reception at the restaurant nearby. but the food was quite a disappointment. there was sushi but the taste not appealing.
speaking of which, i ate sushi again yesterday at shin tokyo with aishah ayu maya shab waina! but the one which used to be at chai chee me and waina used to frequent still the best. i miss their satay sushi. where has it gone i've no idea:(

i leave you with a nasyid lyrics. got it from the spib lesson last week. fikir-fikirkanlah. renung-renungkanlah. ahah.
The Zikr - Ramadhan 2 Zaman
ramadhan satu nasib tak serupa
peluangnya sama natijah berbeza

ramadhan mereka gembira cemerlang
mukmin berjasa di awal zaman
ramadhan kami malam terbuang
muslim berdosa di akhir zaman

mereka gembira kerana kedatanganmu
kami gembira dengan pemergianmu
malam mereka meriah disimbah nur al quran
tapi malam kami muram bertemukanmu

mereka berlumba mengejar makrifat
tapi kami lesu diburu nafsu
hati mereka bercahaya digilap takwa
jiwa kami gelap didera dosa

takbir mereka takbir kemenangan
hadiah mujahadah sebulan ramadhan
takbir kami lesu tak bermaya
tanda kalah lemah tak berdaya
puasa sekadar lapar dan dahaga

demi perjuangan

2009-08-17T19:47:00.003+08:00

i feel lousy today. physically and mentally.

"angin oh angin, kirimkanlah salamku kepadanya" :)

spoonfeed

2009-08-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

You just have to complete your homework at night don't you. You do your homefreakingwork at night when dad is home eh. Make the rest of us look like we refuse to help you. And when you fall asleep on your work, dad instructed you to go to bed, you insisted on finishing your work. Kononnya teacher marah kalau tak habiskan, teacher nanti koyakkan buku. Biskut, nak gain sympathy eh. You could have done earlier lor. But no, you were too busy sneaking around trying to get your hands on the computer. And you resorted to lies. "Nak pakai online dictionary". and whenever mum checks on you, you switch/close that runescape window. you think i stupid izzit. If I prompt you to hurry up finish your work, "Kalau gitu, dalila ajarkan ah". Like your textbook don't exist eh. "ni dalam textbook. Go check." "topic ni bukan dalam buku p6." "check p5 ke." "tak tau mana mak letak". Boy, you schooling or your mother schooling.

I would very much like to guide you but I have my own pile of workload, mind you. So I think it's reasonable to disallow you from asking me anymore questions from eleven onwards. By then you should be sleeping anyway. Plus I feel irritated to see that you refuse to put in any effort. Besides that, I am sorry that my reluctance is partially due to my rebel against -. It's proven that sons learn better with their fathers. But why must he discourage you from learning I don't geddit.

aches

2009-08-01T09:07:00.002+08:00

(my body's still aching and a good body massage will be good)

4PM bahas finals will be on air tomorrow night on suria channel. do watch it k cos it's worth watching. it's one of the debates which manage to hold my attention throughout. i was there at the recording studio last friday. twas amazing.

it's 9:08 now i have to get ready for meet the parents session. i'll continue later when time permits.

sugar rush

2009-07-18T23:55:00.010+08:00

My plan was to sack out right away upon reaching home but looks like the endorphin from the peanut butter fudge and kit kat i ate at azizah's is working its magic on me. The change was really drastic can, I could feel the sugar rushh after the first piece of peanut butter fudge.

Highlight of the day: Chek Jawa boardwalk with pw groupmates:D!! Too brain-dead to type about it, apologies.

And then at night met azizah to do the racial harmony day thingy. Still not done yet, so I guess I can't afford the time to watch amirah's band performance at botanic gardens tomorrow. Sorry amirahhh have a great time there k!

july birthday bash

2009-07-12T00:50:00.005+08:00

erin, maira, please do not grow up so fast k. i like yall adorable this way.

i plan to stay up till 5. eyes, brain, do cooperate thanks.

screw that guy who cut my hair too short for my own good when i already said shoulder length.

loveable stupid guys

2009-06-22T12:02:00.005+08:00

Finding Nemo was on channel 5 last night so I put off meeting with Syed to catch it. It's my all time-favourite movie, besides Space Jam. I remember it was my first movie in the cinema after eons so it left a greater impact on me in addition to the beautiful adventurous plot.

As I was explaining the story to mum, I was surprised I could actually name the fish's types. A barracuda ate the clownfish nemo's family, dory is a dory fish and so on. This is attributed to the interactive computer game Odell Down Under I used to play when I was younger. Cheydeybah!

I love dory, so slenger bach!

"just keep swimming just keep swimmin"

of course, i love this guy too.

patrick. i have the plush toy i have the huggable plush toy!

and my newfound love, bob

and his jelly haha

hiccups

2009-06-19T18:09:00.001+08:00

He's four months shy of twelve. But *backspaced*

Forget it. Feeling better after texting kak ayun.

along the way!

2009-06-08T02:10:00.006+08:00

eh i know my wallet is nice and all la (hah riight) but whoever found it please be kind and return it asap can. iufowyrf804720rb 4oibh4org4r874iwebg'1~@$

still sleepy

2009-06-01T22:02:00.007+08:00

Last week of school was slack, what with no tests, soccer finals, colosseum and college holiday on thursday. Plus I fell sick on Tuesday so I slept like nobody's business. Came Friday, I volunteered at the eleventh hour to go for the 4pm perkampungan bahas as a replacement. together with ayu and mira.

I was excited for the 3d2n camp but the fact that I had less than 24hours to prepare my debate text was nerve-wrecking. Shit happened. We were picked to be in the first saringan which is the next morning at nine. We hadn't prepared much for our scripts. We had brought along two school laptops but could not access to the internet. Mira fell even sicker on that Friday night. Fortunate for us, the facilitator kak fiela helped us a lot in orienting our stand and shafikah is a kind soul to lend us her laptop. Preparing my text was a torture and I only managed to catch a few minutes of sleep.

i got more anxious by the minute. Firstly, because we were in the first saringan, I as the first speaker of the pencadang side was the first speaker of the day. two, I had never debate in a proper debate environment before. Three, I wasn't fully prepared. Four, there were many more experienced debaters seating in the audience. Five, obviously the audience attention was at the peak as it was the first saringan.

we did not manage to qualify to the next round. Nevertheless, we enjoyed the camp very much. And I am thankful to have the opportunity for the exposure.

and thank you bing and shuwei for finishing up our 3rd draft gpp. me and mira couldn't access to the wireless during our camp.

Rushed home after camp yesterday in the hope of catching up on sleep to prepare myself for gp mid-year just now of which I screwed up paper two. I was still sleepy during the paper anyway. After the paper, I felt light-hearted because it was time for the end-of-term-two bash. 501 headed down to marina barrage for the ne learning journey. Next stop was to the lido to watch 'monsters vs aliens' together as a jc1 cohort.

Life is good:). For now. K I go upload photos on facebook later once I found the cable.

din

2009-05-15T20:28:00.003+08:00

it's as though it's wrong for me to feel. five is complicated enough, why add another one. they are of you can say stark opposites. in the recent years i've tried to be the middleman and it's one hard job. i learnt that it is easier to stay quiet so as to not worsen any situation. even the archive on this page witnessed how i became almost heartless during my o-level period. since then, my threshold for patience has grown and i have mastered the art of stoneface!
ayu mira muni were laughing at me for attempting to add more expression in my face la this one time during break. haha

just now barom was bullying kucing(our current cat). as much as i feel for the cat, i tried to ignore him cos i knew he wouldn't comply to stop or worse, intensify the bullying to agitate me.
that was until i saw him carrying kucing by pinching it by the neck. when he realised i was watching him, he quickly used his other hand to support its bottom. you see, i knew from mum that cats know they are being punished when they are pinched on the neck. and in this case, kucing wasn't doing anything wrong!
that was it man. i went after barom and grabbed him by his collar neck and dragged him around and went, do you like it when i do this to you? i let him off when he finally answered and then snorted 'dahlah berpeluh. pengotor.' and then went off to wash my hands. his shirt was soaking wet uh. haaha bimbo sia.

2009-05-01T10:12:00.000+08:00

i loved how physics overlaps other subjects, especially chemistry.

hopefully full attendance

2009-04-25T12:21:00.001+08:00

am getting lazier to tie my hair up. I went for a haircut last week and wanted to have it short but apparently my hair is too frizzy to not to be tied up so the hairdresser cut it a little bit below shoulder.

I can't make it to kak nur's wedding today so to make it up, I last minute decided to attend the majlis pernikahan last night even though I had to do my PI 3rd draft. Hanged around with cousins for awhile and then left early with the intention to complete my PI but ended up sleeping on the floor while waiting the comp.

So later I'm going to the semarak temasek with the mcs girls. After which, I'll meet much-missed Sirius at pp macs if not at cedar. Tonight I want to let my hair down and go high during the campfire :D
And then start mugging on Sunday.

accomplished

2009-04-10T10:33:00.004+08:00

Whoa I slept for more than 12 hours. As what mum said 'bayar hutang'. It was my first time yesterday in dunno how many school days already going home before the sun sets. But im not complaining. Being busy does not allow dwelling too much on things I miss.
I got the chance to talk have a chat with ayesha in my school on wednesday. she came over for the girls soccer match. And hafeeza gave me a call yesterday! so delighted to be in touch with them! it's inevitable la, we got our own lives to lead. Even with azizah as my schoolmate, only occasionally do we have common time. Boleh diibaratkan macam kesibukan seperti plaster yang semakin tebal dek masa yang menampal kerinduan di hati. Tapi luka kerinduan tu tetap ada.

Syf over. Gold! I’m proud of us 16 girls for performing our best and the bonds forged throughout the practices. And of course, the others who made it happen. :D
My first and probably the last participation in syf lah sey. Unless you count the syf opening ceremony parade 2006. ok scrape the first sentence. My first and the probably the last participation in syf judging. a new experience.

Meeting with azizah later. And going on a sastera trip to johor tomorrow. Yay got life got life.

pahlawan

2009-03-30T16:57:00.010+08:00

the internet server was down the whole of last week and when it was fixed and i checked my facebook account, there's quite a number of photos from the family gathering @ sentosa tagged by kak ayun (her camera has got cool effects to play with!). i know this is so overdue but for keepsake, allow me to do a recount.

the main highlight of the gathering was the race for the cousins. introducing the green team: zaki, barom, mat nor(sorry if misspelled) and me. wahsey, guys ah, run like lipas kudung yknow. my tummy was hurting(must be the cookies i ate just before the start) and i felt like a loser cos i was lagging behind them. seriously, i thought it would be more of figuring out routes and answers but it was mainly running here and there. i dunno why i was stupid enough not to think of running barefooted. running on sand with sandals on was so mafan. fortunately i managed to take time to recover at the third stop while building the sandcastle. cut the story short...green team, from an ununited team and piecing the first clue the slowest, to coming in second place! and we won ourselves adidas and popular vouchers. hidup hijau! (just that i was wearing ixora tee cos mum threw away my garde tee and triton tee is out of stock. boo.)

eh evelynn wong ah, why keep changing link one? oh, we no longer have the same PE period eh. that's sad. and elle! if you're reading this, we're so near yet so far. i cant help thinking that you're just a few blocks away from school. do you have a new link?

if not, panau

2009-03-16T17:20:00.006+08:00

just got home from school and while waiting to cool down before hitting the shower, i'll blog. i had a good time during the weekend. friday was doing cip at the scas. saturday went to yj's funfair with hafsah to see liyana. liyana played host to us and a good one at that. big thank you for the ticket and the popeye's meal two months ago:). sigh dunno when i'll see them again:(
yesterday went to a (insert: grand) wedding invitation at danga bay. initially i had doubt on going as mum and barom went along too (disastrous combination) but i've always liked the idea of crossing the singapore boundary in a private transport. deprived la kan. the three of us tompang-ed uncle's car. after danga bay was visiting the elders. i got excited to see my grandaunt's place. it's still the same! the room where my family used to sleep, the front porch where my siblings and cousins played. hee. headed to pandan city before seafood-ing at stulang. the food there rocks can.

the only thing to look forward this week is the race at sentosa with cousins. and if possible, study dates with friends.

pengecut ah

2009-03-06T18:26:00.006+08:00

it's true i take comfort in familiarity. coward.

if i can make it to the kenduri at kembangan tomorrow after the bengkel, i hope it rains. then it will be like the times i go there for tuition last year. more often than not, it usually rained during tuition sessions. reminisce remininsce. except that i will never see nenek on that usual sofa when i enter anymore.

k good, my phlegm is clearing up. part makan ubat, sangatlah liat. that's why it took me so long to recover. last week, one by one fell sick. for me, it started with a mild cough then i was down with a fever, but i still came to school anyway (sorry, irresposible, i know). i felt the worst during the geog tutorial last friday. i was shivering like mad until my teeth were chattering and my fingernails turned purplish. woots.