dal

I am not obliged to update regularly nor put up posts to your interests.

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i realised the last time i blogged was on tue. i thought it was 2 days ago. wow. time flies. or rather i should say i was too busy with school to mind about bloggin'.


2 days ago, dad wishes to unite our family. he admits he is in fault for our un-unity. i cried because 1stly, this is what i've been hoping a long time ago. 2ndly, i know we will not make it. because, i realised it is actually a tough job. 1st of all, dad's voice is too fierce & scary, i can easily cry when he scolds/teaches(because he does it like in a scolding way if we don't understand it) & even talks. so why interact with someone who can easily make you cry?
3rdly, parents will never understand nowadays teen's feeling. give you an example. i was eating fried egg without the egg yolk 'cause i dislike it. dad blamed me for following my friends for not liking it. i was like...what? can't we have disfavourites? must we like all things? it's unlogical man. i didn't argue back 'cause i know i will end up crying & it's also useless 'cause i know dad will insists he's correct so i just finish my food quickly & went back to my work. okay, so how do you interact like this? conclusion: we can never discuss anything with parents, especially with dad. especially on private matters.
last of all, it is all too late. it is depicted in my msn personal message. i will feel at unease if i show my intimidacy towards my family members. i bet they will too. it's just because we have not been doing that since we were born. i wonder how a child who has not seen her parents since she was very young, say 2 year old, feel. i always watch the documentary & they will be extremely happy when their wishes are fulfilled - to meet their parents. isn't it weird? i mean you almost don't know your parents, you've never feel their shower of love, how can you be happy when you are reunited with you parents? okay, maybe i'm not in their shoes so i'm not feeling what they are experiencing. but i'm just stating my view.
since that day dad wanted the unity, i became more uneasy & irritated with my parents. i don't know why, but maybe yesterday i had parade so maybe i was tired. maybe it's because i have the mentality of 'you said you wanted to unite, so why aren't you doing so?'


yay. ma'am already teach me how to polish MY boots. haha mine's an exception. 'cause the kiwi cracked(it's not my fault ok. i remebered the 1st parade wearing boots, we were unorganised with the u so they throw things everywhere, including my boots. that's how the boots get the cracks). the steps are, burn them, clear all the kiwi, recoat it about thrice, & start polishing! yay. but how do you burn it? shall ask li er.