dal

I am not obliged to update regularly nor put up posts to your interests.

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again i was the middleman. they mustn't have realised it i know. i should've just blurted out "abeh AKU kene pergi?" instead of just swallowing my feelings. not that i didn't want to go but they're taking me for granted that i'm always willing to do anything.

barom just came back and he was like singing the flea song, chanting the alright ok...haha so semangat. first time katakan.

the overpowering smell of duriannnnss. mum's baking durian muffin (she's just experimenting the different flavours available. she added mocha in last week's muffins for the kenduri.) for my maternal cousin's daughter's birthday party later. there's my paternal side also, coincidentally, and luckily the venues are not that far apart. one in yishun the other one in woodlands. looking forwrd to having a great time with my cousins(:
the house is quiet. cos barom's gone for his p5 camp. now how am i supposed to survive without him? he's the only one who can -.

cross-country! was jogging with shalu and hafeeza with the latter as the pacer. thank you for the motivation girsh.
yay burn you body fats, burn!

i was looking at the extension lesson schedule. not looking forward to missing amaths, physics on friday but at the same time quite excited for the captains' ball comp. we want to prove ourselves you see.

i saw syed's comment on my friendster a while ago and thought that he's online but pffft...he's not. thought of asking him to send Kasih Mengapa to me. omG that's one of my favourite songs.

these are what i planned to do after the mid-years. ranked according to desire.
-run at the reservoir [checked. ran with azizah after npcc day.]
-dinner out with family
-kbox with kosong
-picnic/cycling
-retail therapy
look. only one is done. i shall also count the 7 bucks spent on watching Nim's Island with half of sirius after our last paper as a reward for myself. uhhuh we did a paper in the morning, lunched, caught a movie, and still in time for the np day rehearsal. amazing how much can be done in a normal school day.

shucks it's nearing dinner time now and i'm still full because i had a late lunch.

I cried myself to sleep last night. well at least dad did show his concern.
I tried distracting myself by blasting the radio and doing maths. But that problem sum was so hard that it got me staring into the question and I started drifting. I thought about how my studies suck, about my family, and of course about this friend of mine.
Friend ah, we have confidence in you that you will take care of yourself. You will right? We know you’re strong.

This is what happens when the brain is no longer needed to absorb formulas and facts. You'll think too much.

Talked to syed about our home matters. According to him, maybe it's because I'm well taken care of physically, I care so much about the emotional burden. But I still can't accept why I must be the middleman.
Azizah pointed out why not. Mm-hmm true...but I'm tired already. Anyway, thank you for lending your ears.

This coming week will be a busy one. So no chance to go out with kosong. Kau ah, busy sangat last week. Terpaksalah tunda lagi.

macdonald's used to be a luxury thing for me. but now i seem to be going there every now and then.
and i got concerned seeing all those disposable containers and cups...like can you imagine...1 set meal per person per visit. woah. and the fact that it is operated 24/7. the delivery some more.
ok i'm saying all these because i just came back from macs. k bye. proper updates next week lah huh.

note to myself: FOR GOODNESS SAKE, STOP SNACKING