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i'm glad i spent the night at lor melayu with my cousins instead of staying at home when i got home from the hospital. at least i have company to share this together. if not i think i would have wallowed myself in sadness.

sunday was a relative's wedding. he was in police number one uniform for his second suit and i got high. haha.

yesterday while waiting for the ballroom door to open for the guests, we were walking around to make sure everything was in order. then someone casually asked what my name is cos i was new there. then he asked what race am i. i said "malay. is it not obvious?". and then i realised my reply was silly cos there's quite a number of foreigners there who do look like malays.

just being random for this post.

cycling yesterday was refreshing and tiring. stamina sucks la. next time i want to go further than the changi park connector!
today supposed to look for black skirt with mira. but i don't have the discount card with me right now so it's postponed to tomorrow. haha discount punye pasal.
ok...i have to buy a cd soon to store all the sabah photos in case this pc breaks down. see how precious the memory is to me.
annndd...sleepover at hafeeza's tonight! yea baby!

-uncooperative -noisy -impulsive, selfish -syiok sendiri, -downright irritating, dirtyminded -sec2 i think

when nenek was getting ready for operation in the ward just now, kosong was with me and she explained to me the procedures. she used to be in nursing course, so she knows. quite interesting how they work. like i didn't know metal things are not allowed in the operating room, including earrings and dentures.
after nenek was sent to the operating room, me and kosong went to cityhall to find our stuff. one of the rare opportunities to talk to her.
found out i'm 2 sizes bigger than her. i'm fat. k nolah berisi. and she now works(attachment) tuesdays to sundays and plans to not work this sunday to attend a wedding. i've told her before that if it's mum's side's wedding, i will karaoke with her. uh-oh. people, standby an umbrella this sunday for contigency plans.

shucks primary school holiday has started. n dad is on leave until dunno when. dammit. kecoh. ke ch oh. ig76*)&#$kln62

so much to write down so much to censor. tell you what...this - means censored. haha got reminded of 'i kissed a MUTTON! i liked it'.

dad is being -. mum's being -. kak iza's being -. kosong's -. barom is - to the core. i may appear calm outside but hati Tuhan je yang tahu. call me hypocrite but i'm not. just that im so used to it the situation at home, i dare say i'm more matured in dealing with it now compared to last time. yea this thing has been going on since -. during the olevel period, i told myself to put everything aside and just focus on studies. i got myself frightened for a while cos i thought i forgot how to feel. i did break down a few times but not so bad lah. i rarely talk about this when with friends cos i just wanna have fun whenever i can. kalau kat rumah, masing-masing buat hal sendiri. i did take initiative ok. i told them i wanted to belanja (big deal ok. my pocket money is not that much) them a meal but nobody was really interested, except for kak iza who asked on that day kalau jadi tak. nampak sah tak jadi. and now i geddit why im so stonefaced. it comes from the practice of ignoring barom. i'm building an iron curtain between me and him. i shall adopt an isolationist policy until he grows up.
so shalu, you can continue poking me, but i won't react much(:. im chemically stable! i've gained an octet configuration.

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