Sunday, January 15, 2006
16:00
we were half way through far east when she decided that she can't take the stomach cramp. the pain was so unbearable that she can't walk. so we had to go home. i felt pity for her, but at the same time, disappointed & sad. disappointed because this is about the 3rd time i had to postpone my buying of wallet. she said she would accompany me this weekend. actually i prefer to go yesterday but she refused as she was damn tired from work. if only we went yesterday... i hope she realised she should not delay time...
sad as she threw bad words to me. reason being i was irritating her by asking her "stupid" questions like 'can't we walk slowly to the bustop instead of stayin', waitin' for the pain to fade?'. i mean does pain gives the right to scold people? the most i've ever scolded others when i'm angry/irritated is the word stupid.
so i numbed myself. again. i didn't know i'm this sensitive. since
amir is not with me i realised i've becoming more emotionally fragile. if she's here, i would compare myself with her, who's more pathetic than me.
i'm now surrounded with rich friends. i'm surrounded with spoilt people. temptations, get it...temptations.